Hi Dear Rabbi! I am 31 years old and trying to conceive
for the past 4 years. Me and my husband are so despaired, we did 4 IVFs
one time I did get pregnant but unfortunately lost the baby!!! Thank you
so much
Shalom and blessings,
I was filled with sorrow upon reading your letter about
your many sufferings. In your words resounded the pain of years of hope
and unfulfilled dreams- of struggles, expectation, and persistence rewarded
with empty arms. The verses of barreness of Sara, Rebecca, Rachel and Hanna
echoed through your letter, and I, as the reader of your letter, was left
silent by your pain.
Like our foremothers, your strength and inner will to continue
to grow and build, to live and hope, to give and love; that inner strength
of holiness, also leaves me silent in admiration.
I am reminded of the fact that these national memories
of our collective barreness were set as the Torah readings for Rosh HaShana,
in order to inspire us to higher levels of yearning for fulfillment, and
true prayer- in imitation of the barren woman's yearnings and prayers. And
yet we can assume that a memory can inspire only a shallow echo of such
hopes- where as your lived experience is not mere imitation, but yearning
itself- the prayer itself.
From within my silence let me extend a blessing for only
good to you both, may you be blessed with all that is holy and that your
hearts be healed with comfort from G-d.
Blessings, Rabbi Da'vid Sperling
